Wednesday 6th December 2006
Woke up at 10 plus in the morning today, haha Felix is coming by my house to teach me magic and doesnt know how to get here hahaha, anyway, Bryan is also coming by, he said he's damn bored at home, always nothing to do... haha so i met with Felix first went to market and eat.. wah lau! Felix ate so much for just $2.70, cheat sia... haha i bought beef brisket rice for 4 bucks loh.. haha, i put many many red cut chilli ( chilli padi ) then i eat all sia... wah lau! super shiok! and ultra hot loh... haha can die.... sweat like dunno wat... then people like keep looking at me... my face damn red... haha... then i go buy sugar cane + lime, damn nice, cooling and refreshing, haha then went to go meet Bryan...
While waiting for Bryan, Felix showed me some card tricks ahaha, i thought i was damn cool lah... i loved his black deck the most, although i wanna go find the black ghost deck haha, Felix say can find for $20, (hint hint!: Christmas present? anyone?) haha then dunno why suddely Bryan pop out, haha dunno where he come from, anyway then go back to my place, on the comp then ... internet explorer spoil, haha must call "the guy" wah lau when i call the singnet technical support right i actually said, "hi im looking for the guy" then after i realised i said it, i put down haha, dont dare say my name, so i called then just do one step then fix i was like wah lau, i also can do..... just damn lazy to think... haha ok then we keep playing card, then Felix also showed us some lame tricks loh, dumb cat, anyway i played 2 people tai di with Bryan, haha damn interesting, i anyhow make up the game one, but still fun haha, i kept losing the first few round lah... but then i was like how can i keep losing one? then i bounce back i win him back haha... watched more magic trick then the guys got hungry so now is 6 plus going to be 7
haha so we went to market go eat hokkien mee, haha hokkien mee was "POWER!"~ haha but Felix still say Toa Payoh one nicer... is it? i dunno i still think Bukit Timah Market Hokkien Mee is "POWER~!" haha then they both went home... i think Felix is sad, cause i didnt send him to the interchange like i said i would oh well... haha SORRRY lah.... i lazy + got business + got something i needed to do lah....
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Why do we have to part while the love is still there? Why do we have to suffer? Why do we have to cry when somebody bids goodbye? Why do beginnings have an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose in the end?
There are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems left undone, songs left unsung, love left unexpressed, promises left unfulfilled.
In a relationship, one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It is as hard as breaking a crystal because you'll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again. More often than not, they who go, feel not the pain of parting:it is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of a lovethat was meant to be, a love that was.
At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but that's the way love goes. That's the drama, the bittersweet and the risk of falling in love. After all, nothing is constant but change. Everything will eventually come to its end without us knowing when, without us knowing how, without us even knowing why. And we must forget not because we have to but because ke always reminds you of her. It's like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night. Funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing. Just imagine, there are billion people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty without the other.
I don't know if it's worth calling an art, but letting go entails special skills sparkled with a considerable space and time. Time heals all wounds but it takes a little push on our part. Acceptance plays a part. Not all love stories end with "...and they live happily ever after."
Sometimes we have to part because of circumstances beyond our control. We have to suffer if it would mean happiness for others. We have to cry to temporarily let go of the pains. Every beginning has its end like every dawn has its dusk. It's something we can't control, something we had to live up. It's over. She's gone. But life has to go on. Goodbye doesn't always mean forever. There will always be a place and time where questions will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled. Somewhere. Somehow. Someday.The angel said to the women, "Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay. Then go quickly and tell his disciples: 'He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.' Now I have told you."
Matthew 28:5-7
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Wednesday, December 06, 2006
